Morphing Eros from Male-Loins to My-Mammaries (By Breast Pumping and Intake of Herbal-Prolactins)

 

 

Since October 6, just like nine days ago, I have been taking teas of Fenugreek seeds, Red Clover seeds, and Leucine amino acid-- all conducive to prolactin stimulation and so I call my brew 'Prolactinergia,' and to the degree that galactose-like thus oxytocin-like physiology emerges from my body-- as I shall posit here abetting a re-focus of my sexual energies including my cognitive element in erotics. Once I experienced diarrhea in this span of use, but that may have been more-due to my succinctly untidy housekeeping; there is (perhaps by psy suggestion, perhaps not) a deeply comfortable feeling about my overall elan toward living, and my interest in work of love, both in the literary product of my effort to noetically heal/decouple from the hard-hit-yes of raw homelessness, AS WELL as in a strident effort to be loving to woman, yes all women as Angels/Goddesses, but too in trying (again as again and again is my 'usual') to find a particular woman unto whom I can be loving appropriately and in congruence with her inner 'chemistry.'

I do not know how much 'stasis' there is in my glad and increasingly softened morale toward loving; but now this feels wonderful, ego-syntonic, deeply pleasurable. I wit that the cognitive and emotional content that accompanies this wonderful and inexorable enhancement of Being feels compellingly real.

In this connection I bring up-- perhaps for a time-plural-- the use of my Breast Pump, a high quality and essentially new Medela pump; continued practice pumping-- say 3  or 4 hours per day-- as previously brings 'milk' in some perhaps surprising volumes for a cisMale now 75yoa, and with some affecting physical problems (diabetes M and heart calcificated aorta).  Again, although I am after a spate of use last month I am finding 'wet' of deminuated fluid when I pump-- quite off-on infrequently-- but always with a deeply rewarding new feeling of ok-ness, wholeness, a love-all I say softness that certainly I would like to keep as long as my life-- and I MEAN THAT!!!

I am at this juncture willing to utter a strong postulate that my present gladness, yes of some hypomania perhaps but abiding, is due to these conjoint efforts at hormone-stimulus-attempts, 'milking' with the breast pump, and an ovrall dominant attraction to all-things-Feminine as nearing total cognitive preoccupation have re-focused the libido to my mammaries, as formerly focused on my genitals and loin-based orgasm; I am quite happy, will 'keep on keeping on' with this delicious, as too delilghtful state of love-based-boob-wise-on-my-body!